Walking that is. It supposed to rain for the next 8 days straight. And you guys know, as well as I do, I dont do well exercising at home. So, I threw on my sweatshirt, cross trainers and iPod shuffle and grabbed an umbrella. Walking my trail, I was completely alone. It alternated between light and medium showers, except for a 2 minute downpour. My legs were absolutely freezing(I wear capri leggings/work out pants. Im tall...its hard to find long pants that fit correctly), but I felt good finishing. Went home and had to peel the socks off. They were soaking wet. Which was weird, because I didnt feel them. Good thing or bad thing? Anyway, Im thinking about walking again tonight. At night, Ive found myself with extra energy, which in turn makes it hard to sleep. I just wanna jog out a mile and pass out!
Y'know, I never realized before I started writing this blog...but I think I have anxiety problems. I think Ive mentioned my unusually high anxiety levels half a dozen times in this blog already. And Im about to mention it again. Im anxious about tomorrows weigh in. I weighed myself today (Olivia and Candy...forgive me! Lol)When I saw the number, the feeling went through the roof. And I know its not ones fault but my own. This weight loss journey isnt the first time Ive experienced anxiety. Actually, for a two year stretch, about 2 years back, I was regularly experiencing terrible anxiety attacks. Mostly in crowded places. One time, they got some bad, it reduced me to crying on the floor of a stall in a bar bathroom; I couldnt calm myself down and I felt like I was going to have a heart attack. And granted, the anxiety I feel is nothing like the attacks I was experiencing...but Id like to nip it in the bud before it blows up.
Alright. Enough about my multitude of problems. This weekend will be interesting. I have a surprise birthday party at a bar to go to and then a dinner over at a friends house on Sunday.
Deep breaths :)
Xo,
Mary
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anxiety sucks. Do you get anxious at certain times? If you figure what makes you anxious maybe you can avoid those situations? As for weigh ins, you're doing great! You work hard and the weight will come off
ReplyDeleteLol, I will never judge you for weighing in. I was (really I still am) absolutely addicted to it. Did it every morning. I do have to say that only weighing in on Fridays is really making me feel less anxious, and it is also forcing me to deal with WHY I was anxious in the first place. So I guess that is good. Hopefully gonna weigh in this morning, because I'm itching too :)
ReplyDeleteOne great thing is that exercise can help with anxiety. It will take time, but what you are embarking on is going to help improve every aspect of your life. So hang in there, you are doing great! Especially walking in the rain!! That takes devotion out the, well, ya know.
Have fun this weekend. I'm in the same boat with lots of temptations. I'm just gonna try to go by the law of moderation.
Good luck!
Olivia
Go CC!!! Walking in the rain takes tremendous amount of devotion! you are an amazing person!
ReplyDeleteGreat post. I'am a newbie to your site and I have enjoyed the read. You are doing great.
ReplyDeleteI weigh-in in the morning never at night. Night time weigh-ins put me in a spin.
It has been pouring here in Arizona for the last week, so my walks have been in Costco and Sam's Club. And I have avoided the food courts each time. I take my victories where I can get them.
I blog outside of the normal range of things. I have my own site http://loseweightdream.com It you get a chance take a look and leave me a comment. I am trying to make contact with more people.
If I don't hear from you...KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK.
PS As a kid I lived in Marin County (Novato to be exact) for three years.