2010. A new year. A new me?

Every single year, for as long as I can remember, my new years resolution has been to lose half of myself. Okay, maybe not half, because that would put me at a pretty dangerous weight(5'10 and 125 pounds? No thanks) But this is the year!

Why is this the year? Well, my health is absolutely poor. And I could probably go on fooling myself into thinking my weight isnt "so bad" if my doctor hadnt said "There is an excellent possibility that if you can lose 80 pounds(ack!), your health problems might clear up"

Awesome.

Since this is the first post of the blog, I guess I'll back up and give you some history. Im 26 years old and weight 250 pounds.

Ugh. A little piece of me died revealing that.

Ive always been heavy. Chubby kid. Fat teenager. Fatter adult. Except for a brief period of stress induced weight loss at the age of 19, I dont think I have been under the 200 mark in a decade. And like many fat girls before me, I hide my insecurities with my humor, stylish clothing and seduction skills. But, at the end of the day, no one wants to date the fat funny girl with the coach purse(which I dont own,lol)

I dont think I will ever be considered skinny. At my lowest weight, I was 180. I looked good. I carried it well. But I have come to accept that my hips and ass will never go away. And Im okay with that...as long as my thighs and stomach pick up the slack.

I know everyone says to lose weight for yourself. If someone is gonna like you, they are gonna like you for you. Yeah yeah. I get it. I still wanna lose weight so I can land someone I am not settling for because my choices are limited.

I lucked out. I am actually shaped like a coke bottle. I mean, a pretty large coke bottle. Like a 2 liter, if it were bottle shaped. My skinny sister always tells me she would trade her small boyish figure for my hefty curvy one. I guess people always want what they dont have, eh?

Anyway, so 2010 is the year I take it off. The weight, I mean. Im 250 pounds. Actually, 254. I weighed myself today. I am aiming for taking 80 pounds off by this day, 2011.

250-80=160
80lb/12month=6.666(and so on)lbs per month

I feel like its a super do-able weight loss goal.

Ive given myself 4 rules.
1. Drink water. Lots of it. They say you should drink your weight in ounces. Well, that would mean I would need to drink almost 2 gallons of water a day. Lets work up slowly huh? Drink 1 distilled gallon per day.

2. Exercise 5 times a week. 5 mile walks. Ooh, and dancing.

3. No more fast food!! I think if I can just cut that out of my life, I will be much better off.

4. For every month I reach my weight loss goal, I will reward myself.

So, today, I nailed the 5 mile walk. Also, ordered the Sketchers Shape Ups. Rediculous looking shoe, but hopefully, will help burn extra calories. Food wise, I had a pack of sushi from safeway, a roast beef sandwich and a pack of 100 calorie pringles. Oh, a fiber bar. Not too bad food wise. My hips are absolutely killing me after 10 miles in 2 days. But I feel better about myself. Lets hope these shoes live up to the hype.

Until tomorrow kids :)

Xo,
CC