shredding. calories. peeing my pants.

so im on day 8 of the shred. there are still portions of the exercise that are still really hard. at the end of the tape when im doing lunges with arm raises, i can barely last through the arm raises. usually ive got to mix in some barbell curls instead of the raises. and i have to mix up the ab work. the bicycle crunches i do at the beginning of the work out. because if i do them at the end, i totally crap out. cant help it. im having, like, dexterity issues with the bicycle crunches. i feel like im kinda just flailing around. if im concentrating on my abs, i forget about not straining my neck. if im concentrating on my legs, im doing half assed crunches. however, my endurance is getting way better. 22 days left to go...

this week ive been counting calories. its made me realize how much i dont think the weight watchers program is for me. i count calories for EVERYTHING! i had two tortilla chips today and they got counted. weight watchers doesnt require to you be accountable for the "bite" you take. two chips on weight watchers is nothing. and veggies...i eat salads at every meal. and i have found, counting calories, that a salad can be about 150-210 calories. thats about 400 calories that isnt getting counted. after this week, i will go back to weight watchers for at least the next week. like i said i would. but i believe that calorie counting is what is going to help me lose the weight in the long run.

totally overate this weekend. and honestly, i was okay. i was freaking out about it like i would be on ww. deep breath. dust myself off. get in some extra cardio to make up for some of the deficit. start again tomorrow.

today was the first day i EVER finished a bag of movie theater popcorn. it was small and from what my app says, a small is about 7 cups. it costed me about 600 calories, but it was neccessary to have something to stuff into my mouth while watching Insidious.

holy moly. i am a huge(!!!!) horror movie fan and while i usually get a good jump or two from watching a new movie, there are very few that make lasting impressions in the way insidious did. actually, i can only think of one other movie.

the ring came out in 2002. a group of friends and i went and saw it one night after a bunch of us got off of work. now, i dont consider the ring to be a particularly scary movie.

(now, if for some reason, you havent seen this movie, dont keep reading.)

however, there is a scene where the little girl comes crawling out of the television. i was so scarred, i cried. literally cried. i jumped into my friend adams lap and cried. he had to stroke my hair and tell me it was going to be okay. seriously. a grown woman. crying at a horror movie.


no movie has given me that kind of reaction in almost the 10 years since then. until today. my friend nick and i decided to go and see a matinee today, as neither of us had anything to do. i had heard from my friend that the movie was really scary. however, i dont scare that easily, so i was a bit skeptical.

as with most horror movies, there were things that made me jump. however, there was a scene in the movie(i wont spoil it...) that had me so frightened, a tear rolled down my cheek. i was impressed.

toward the end, the aaction really picks up. after drink a liter of water, i was doing the i-gotta-pee foot jiggle. and didnt want to miss any of the movie. i knew that it was going to be over soon, so i figured i would wait it out...

the thing that was onscreen earlier. that thing that made me cry? yeah...that showed up again. and while my eyes didnt leak this time...well, you get the picture. if you can imagine a face being horrified, surprised and laughing hysterically at the same time? yeah, that was me. insidious made me slightly pee my pants.

as horror movies go, thats gotta count for something right?

todays blog is brought to you by the letter r and the number 13

two days in a row? :)

today is day 4 of shred. its not easy by any means(my push ups are still horrendous) but its getting much easier. today is also my weigh in day for weight watchers. however, being totally fed up with sticking to my "points" and not seeing any results...i have decided to do a bit of experimenting. those numbers, running along the right side of the blog, chronicle my weight loss journey. i lost almost 40 pounds by myself. and as i said in yesterdays blog, since joining weight watchers 1/3/11, i am only down 4 pounds.

so, the experiment. i have decided that this week, i am going to count calories all week. i am eating 1500 calories 5 days a week and 1700 calories 2 days a week. its called calorie zig zagging and its supposed to help you not hit plateaus. we'll see.

anyway, i will also, obviously, be doing the rest of my remaining 7 days of the shred at level one. then next week, i will return to weight watchers. and be completely anal about the plan. and begin shred level 2. i actually think i am giving an advantage to the ww side of the experiment, as shred level 2 is going to be more trying then level 1. anyway, i'll obviously be blogging through the experience.

i tried to start going through everyones blogs and get caught up on whats been going on in your lives...but i got overwhelmed and quit. lol. dree, youre still in ireland? erika i read that you swear by yoga...i always fell over in yoga class lol. and jenn, i obviously knew what was going on with you. im glad fisher jumped on the bandwagon and you guys are dieting together. how are tank and dilla? thanks ladies for the warm welcome :)

...is anybody out there?

:) thinking about starting to blog again. well, techincally, i have been blogging. ive just been doing it on my weight watchers site blog. but after 13 weeks on the program...i have come to realize that weight watchers blows. i stopped tracking my weight on this site when i was 218. as of this moment(after the 13 weeks on weight watchers) i am only down 3 pounds from that weight. um...these people are taking my hard earned money and not even giving me the results i gave myself. for free. so, im going back to calorie counting. seemed to work pretty well for me. im also shredding. day three is today. after day one, i winced in pain at any movement i had to make. i couldnt work out for 2 days after that. but yesterday was much better. i didnt puke or get dizzy. its all about progress lol. i missed you guys.