Six and Twenty. Reflections.

Six pounds. I managed to lose six pounds this week. After all this stress that has been literally, taking over my life, I managed to actually make my goal important enough to myself to obtain. And I did it. Along with this six pound loss, I also blasted through my first short term goal, which was the dreaded 20 lbs. I am now down 22 lbs total.

I havent always made the right decisions. There were days that food was my compadre. When I was upset or stressed or sad-I reached for things I know I shouldnt have. There were nights I drank half a days points in one sitting. But for the first time EVER, I didnt let the stumbles become falls. I didnt abandon my wagon. I have stuck to a diet and exercise routine for almost 4 months now. That is huge for me.

I could always be described in the following sentence "I can resist anything...except temptation" That motto seeped into every facet of my life-food, boys,shopping,school,work. Everything. I am finally starting to realize that just because I could eat onion rings, doesnt mean I dont have the will power to order the salad. For so long I just thought to myself "You just dont have the willpower it takes to give your eating habits up" or "Some people are just meant to be big" This new found power over nothing more then myself, is so amazingly freeing. I love knowing that everytime I drop a few pounds, make the decision to walk instead of watch tv or sleep, eat a can of soup instead of the frozen pizza in my freezer-its me making those decisions. I am complete in control of this ship and I am loving every minute of it. Im proud that when people say "You look great" its because of the work I alone, am doing. I am my greatest masterpiece, even if its still a work in progress.

..Now to think of a reward for those 22 pounds that have been annihilated... :)

Love to all my beauties. Happy monday girls!

Xo,
Mary