First, thank you guys for the encouragement. Its been a hell of a rough patch and, while Im still in the midst of it, you guys are making me feel a lot better :)
So, yesterday was really hard. I went with my mom to visit nursing homes for my grandmother. She, thankfully, is doing better and they plan on releasing her from the hospital in the next week or so. But she cant come back home to live. Too many stairs.
We started off our day with breakfast at Dennys. I need to learn my lesson and just stay the hell away from there. My ham and cheese omlette, hash browns and toast cost me 30 points. Yep. All my points for the day.
*Sigh*
We went over and visited the nursing home that is closest to my parents house. Nice facility. But 7000 dollars a month is a bit out of our range.
Which prompted my mom and I to head home, dejected, but with lots of resources in hand. The lady at the facility was very nice and gave us booklets and brochures and phone numbers.
We started calling around. My mom left because she had a meeting with a social worker at the hospital. I called medicare, medi-cal and the county of san mateo to try and find out what kind of programs my grandmother is eligible for. Because she has money in stocks, not much. They want her deplete her savings before they help her. Its frustrating as hell.
Anyway, went and picked up the kiddo, cleaned my parents house and went home. Baby Daddy, trying to be a sweetheart, picked up dinner. He stopped at outback steak house and ordered me a steak, veggies and a wedge salad. I didnt even bother checking the points. I mindlessly scarfed in down, while watching Friends. It wasnt even that good. But I ate it all anyway. Why? WHY!?!
I can see my pattern of emotional eating. And I know its totally wrong. And yet, I do it anyway. I know Im doing it when I am doing it and still I dont stop.
I was ready to pass out at 6, but instead dragged my sorry ass outside in my walkin shoes and my ipod and went for a 6 mile walk. I felt a lot better when I got home. Although I may have stumbled, I was able to catch up with my wagon and hop back on; instead of laying in the dirt like I used to.
Im heading to the library to see if I can track down a copy of the fat flush plan, since Diz is raving about it. Then off for a walk. Today is my grandmothers 102nd birthday(I know right?!) so later on, I hope to have enough points for a piece of cake.
To all my weight warriors, I hope that you are all doing great. Much love bbs.
WELCOME!!!!
To my newest reader-Drazil(its Lizard backwards. Very cute story attached to it!)
Thanks for hanging hon!!
Xo,
Mary
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Happy Birthday Grammie! 102!!! Wowie!!!
ReplyDeleteThe good news is that your are making changes. In the past you would have let the bad eating continue but this time you caught yourself and curbed the bad behavior. I think this a shift in mindset and it is a good thing!
Have some cake hon! She is 102!
No problem - I love your blog - especially the colors - the black speaks to my dark side and the pink to my girly side. You hang in there okay? And wowser - 6 miles after a day like you had? THAT is determination!
ReplyDelete@Katie J Thanks so much hon. Im trying really hard to change my mindset! Its not a diet, its a life change! And I think I will have some cake...
ReplyDeleteDrazil-I felt the exact same when I saw the background!! And I SO need this weight to come off so my outer awesome matches my inner awesome.
I'm sorry you've been having such a hard time! I know I do HORRIBLE in my weight loss attempts with a lot of stress. Hang in there! It sounds like you are making great efforts!
ReplyDeleteLOL- girl I feel your pain. I'm the queen of emotional eating; queen of the stumble and queen of losing the wagon somewhere and taking weeks to find it again.
ReplyDeleteBut this is what the journey is about- stumbling, and then getting back up. If you don't get back up, you'll stay where you are. IF you get back up and try again, you might see some headway before the next stumble. It will come (the next stumble), be sure of that. But you can make a difference in between the stumbles...and that's what matters. You went on a walk! Congratulations! That's not a condescending pat on the head, btw, that's...look at you...you ARE making progress. It may not be the complete life style change that you're seeking, but you're getting there one step at a time. You didn't have to go walking, but you did. One step in the right direction...will equal another step, and another step, until you've made the whole journey. :) You can do it girl, I know you can. Your blog is really coming along too, love your posts lately. Loves! xoxo
Ah yes the emotional eating. I hate that and sometimes its worse when before I know it I ate something that shouldhave been like 10 servings. One step at atime sweetie!
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